When Boys think the Courage of Girl is Such an Embarassment

Yes. Im here I am with my sleepy EYES.
Assalamualaikum..
For A reasons, I feel today is not a good, hyper, or evn happy day WHICH that shouldnt hav been just bcauz of my sleepy eye (dat's not the only reason)

Whn I arrive school, I sat in front of the library first ..covering myself and closing my eyes. Sitting with my bag still on and beside - bag. I couldnt imagine how might today be.. But it did turn really damn bad. But why me? There's like 2 ppl who ask me what the day today for no reason out loud. -_- "shut up". At the morning with a runny nose, I feel like to cry and Im really feel unconscious.

Yea I was really setting up at i-dont-care face when suddenly ..I m being so kind today dat I gave it without the person evn doing the 1 condition. Sc*** it. Yea I am really kind so I gave it :)

LOL

But wondering of how should I gave something to someone is always a problem to me. Lucky me, there was a few* ppl who help me.. Yea of course. evn the person who I always, always like to bully him by saying "Hi" :P including my gud frend (atta xD ) and the midgit guy (muahaha) The dudes were really out of their mind saying wat I should do.. N it's always been lunch time dat they think of a gud time. I no dat giving someone in public really is not a gud idea but tat one of them said.. to show how courage you are. Yea I mean like I was the only who had tap someone's head, pinch someone cheek, confess on someone face to face, start a conversation, give someone cookie, say hi, start every fist bump, and ask if someone's free and other stuff dat I was known to be tough among girls who actually do stuff to their own crush. But this time, this things are for the sake of asking friendship :)) Not more den dat.. 

This is where all I start to get sleepy and making it the worst day.
So like yea, Lunch time.. I almost refuse to do it. The dudes (who help me) really looking forward to it and Atta did too. (:P) So, not to waste it or give it to the person who sit next to me in Math. There I go talking the green-brown bag and talking a quick step to where - sits and just as the dude imagine, they did a drum roll (LOL) and clap (xD) I greet - and give the bag. It wasnt hard since I'm use to it and it wasnt dat embarassing \\// But if -, I could see it right from the face easily, with dat face which I call it a "drunk" face of - and evn the way - took the bag without evn say anything -.- dat wat I did was totally public. So wat? Like I said to this lame guy who look at me after I give the bag, "yea, keep walking! Keep walking! Keep walllkkkkiiinnnggg" Yes I can really see dat, - dont give damn :/ When atta ask, I said " Im used to it." :) Saying it's sweet is useless xD but hurm. I dont feel gud after dat. -_-

Arabic was ugh.. this teacher is keeping her eyes on me for no reason after I wrote something under my desk. Not basically on the desk but on a note -_- but I got caught but I know how to cover up \\// but later on I seriously is mad because she's keep on calling my name and saying im too busy with stuff and blablabla. I was suppose to like her but den I suddenly hate her -.- which I dont want to. I was feeling so gloomy. TBH, I cried :'(  and after class she said  I was a gud student of hers and I shouldnt be crying. She also said I set a gud example and you hav to be strong. IDK but it seems dat she no why I cried. But I cried for many reason. One main is becaus of my watery and sleepy eyes. Hey! I did sleep early yesterday. Well I dont know! xD

Cute xD

After dat I really dont hav a mood to do anything but go home and sleep. Like atta said xD whn I call her on phone (she like to comfort ppl <3), it's better den nothing. But you should know dat my own sister told - to say something! at least "Thank you!" I know.... :/ I told her i think sleeping is better den the mouthed thank you and thanks xD but she said look at the good side. well den. ..hah..better get going. :/ .. Im not gonna talk about how - say thanks. ><