I MISS YOU :*

Not just you but all my besties, babes, friends, classmates..
I want you guys back :{ Especially u . Niall :*

Asallamualaikum.

I dont know If I'm sick or that Im having sucha sickness in myself. After Niall didn't reply me, my appetite just decrease. Whn I entered my new skool, it starts to decrease more. Going with Ramadhan this month, Im worrying about myself. I just eat less. Too less. I cant even finish half a plate x{ I automatically stop whenever it's half finish. Ya Allah . Help me through this problem. I can't take it anymore :'((

At least I got to Skype with Yasmean . I want to Skype with Abe. But I dont know if I can just call her like that :/

I dont wanna cry but I am now.. for some reason .. Not just becauz that the song dat I'm listening is touching but it matches the situation. I wanna talk to someone about my problem. But whn I find someone who I like, I care, I think I can trust but everyone.. almost like everyone hates them :( Is it wrong? Why do you hav to search for the wrong doings about ppl!? I accept everyone as my friends. But why :{ Just tell me why i cant accept someone like dat.. ???

After Niall hav left me just. just like dat , no more than any ppl can care about me. except someone like dat cares about me dat much x|

Tears drop running on my cheeks. I can't handle the rumors. The most sharpest thing in the world is your tongue. I hate whn ppl said dat Im in relationship. I really hate it. I just cant take it anymore. x'{{ I need Abe, Lidiya, Hanisah, or evn Yasmean. Atiya especially . I need to tell you everything. >< I miss you! Im not strong enough to go through this things. I cant evn share it to my sis. She cant see me crying in the room. They said Im strong. But I cant feel it anymore. All my appetites are gone, all my energy.. I dont feel it anymore...

I wanna go back, go back where I first arrive in KSA and study as much as arabic as possible :( Where I just dont know the meaning of caring someone who's not someone I know b4. Im not angry with ppl. Im just sick of their attitudes.. Isn't it enough already, hurting my weak heart with your words? are u done? can u make me cry a little more harder? :{{.. My nose is block x{{

I just dont know how to explain my real problem to ppl. evn my sis. But Allah knows my problem which I cant classify it myself. ....Im not stress im not frust. I just cant think. No one understands me but Allah.