I hate this feeling...

Why do I have to feel this way?  Everyday its like just making people happy.  I mean dammit.  I dont feel like  am important anymore. I want to feel important to the God.  But what is happening to everything i know,  i learn, and something i already knew?  Gone -.-Something brain wash me.  I seriously dont feel like home.  Tbrh ~ screw this.  This is the only place I can tell on.  No more true friend with that dude :c too following.  Hm.  I just have to act again like this is nothing.  Because i dont like getting overly attach again.  I realize i shouldnt give him hope :c but he was just a friend?  But now he changed. I mean he use to listen to my story and problems but now he just wants to talk to me like being with me.  Ugh. I no this is serioudly stupid but..  I got no one to talk about this.  Ugh.

It is always me who have to listen to peoples order or not they are gonna be mad. I dont feel like being loved at all but instead being tortured.  There nothing i can do without telling ppl.  If i dont they are the one who will feel that they are not important to me.  This is life.  Stuck with the idea of PEOPLE.

Let only god know how i feel. :c go ahead and continue being ego.  I dont know how to say it but i feel lonely and kinda not comfortable knowing that he have...  Another...  Pftt.

Something you gotta know know about?  : MF have a girlfriend mean like wow! Nice.  Congrats on moving on :3 *sigh* I should br changing myself to be alittle bit more like my brother mayb :s haha dont know.  Kbye.  Salam.