Does not even change a thing
Asallamualaikum :)
Over here is morning so good morning :D
Well, u cant express this to someone except here *point to this blog*
I really hope that im making a right decision. It's something i wanted back which is him. I cant stop talking about this am I ? *sighed* The thing is, it doesn't change anything. I still walk around alone, my phone doesn't even showing up his name, I still feel the emptiness together even though i start to have "the smile to the ear" that hurts my face for some reason. I let him do anything he want without even keeping him everytime on my side. But... I really want to be appreciated because I really hate waiting and I dislike people who just sweet from mouth *flying kisses* Im mentally and physically tired. I forgot some of the studies suddenly and Im pretty scared of the future.
I heard he got 2 warning of not coming to school. Well should I be worried about that pretty much? Yes I am. Even if you ask of course he wont say why exactly but he just said he's bored of school. I was almost gonna say ... um i did say " are you not scared of the future?" I want him to go to school. At least because of me he have the spirit to live again when he's always thinking about "Dying". Am I worrying more than his mom or something? -,- harhar. Well.
Im still being left. Alone. haha well forever alone . right =.=idc about that but if i did talk to someone i will be feeling totally bored while i should be studying D: How can I focus when Im mentally still sad for some reason? How should talk to him happily when im dying to tell him i want him to always stay with me? It's weird that im not singing because if im happy i sing when some stupid love songs were playing.... Hmm.. ok. I miss someone right now . I dont know where he went.
Over here is morning so good morning :D
Well, u cant express this to someone except here *point to this blog*
I really hope that im making a right decision. It's something i wanted back which is him. I cant stop talking about this am I ? *sighed* The thing is, it doesn't change anything. I still walk around alone, my phone doesn't even showing up his name, I still feel the emptiness together even though i start to have "the smile to the ear" that hurts my face for some reason. I let him do anything he want without even keeping him everytime on my side. But... I really want to be appreciated because I really hate waiting and I dislike people who just sweet from mouth *flying kisses* Im mentally and physically tired. I forgot some of the studies suddenly and Im pretty scared of the future.
I heard he got 2 warning of not coming to school. Well should I be worried about that pretty much? Yes I am. Even if you ask of course he wont say why exactly but he just said he's bored of school. I was almost gonna say ... um i did say " are you not scared of the future?" I want him to go to school. At least because of me he have the spirit to live again when he's always thinking about "Dying". Am I worrying more than his mom or something? -,- harhar. Well.
Im still being left. Alone. haha well forever alone . right =.=idc about that but if i did talk to someone i will be feeling totally bored while i should be studying D: How can I focus when Im mentally still sad for some reason? How should talk to him happily when im dying to tell him i want him to always stay with me? It's weird that im not singing because if im happy i sing when some stupid love songs were playing.... Hmm.. ok. I miss someone right now . I dont know where he went.
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