lone.r
i think i've lost myself. not saying that im being fake but i think i am
i just dont know how speak it out anymore. the past 6 months i've been keeping all to myself. study is all i think and thinking that i pass the exam and that i can make my parents proud of me. Alhamdulillah. but i've lost the main goal of living right. I was wishing that i was pleasing Allah too. those who remember Him , He will remember them. but is it that hypocrite feeling that im feeling right now?
my anger is blowing every time. feeling like the satan is always there or myself is becoming so impatient. i've been keeping my feeling to myself. everyone was only so busy here or too complicated to understand someone like me . *excuse my grammar mistakes
my relationship with my twin sister is falling apart. evn though we sleep next to each other on bed, we barely talk about our feelings. living in hostel made everything turning into lifeless. all i can think was studying and getting enough sleep. my faces have turn into some lost panda and wicked witch kinda face with pimples scars and pores. nobody even wanted to get close to me lol. to be honest deep i got no one except Allah.
how could you not have heart feeling when your bff said she would rather choose someone who can go out with her ? it takes time to pick up all the pieces that fallen. is that how you choose who u want to leave with? Allah... she's the only one who i look at, it remind me of Allah. why is people treating me like the last person. yes thanks im meaningless. i mess up people, my mood is swinging, at least respect me for who i am .
you wanna say that i made new friends ? nope. clap your hands for this weird statement. yea im an antisocial freak now. i only answer questions, smile at people and do my stuff. and eat. i cried a lot to fit in. i told some of my friends too about how i am but what can they do.
i just dont know how speak it out anymore. the past 6 months i've been keeping all to myself. study is all i think and thinking that i pass the exam and that i can make my parents proud of me. Alhamdulillah. but i've lost the main goal of living right. I was wishing that i was pleasing Allah too. those who remember Him , He will remember them. but is it that hypocrite feeling that im feeling right now?
my anger is blowing every time. feeling like the satan is always there or myself is becoming so impatient. i've been keeping my feeling to myself. everyone was only so busy here or too complicated to understand someone like me . *excuse my grammar mistakes
my relationship with my twin sister is falling apart. evn though we sleep next to each other on bed, we barely talk about our feelings. living in hostel made everything turning into lifeless. all i can think was studying and getting enough sleep. my faces have turn into some lost panda and wicked witch kinda face with pimples scars and pores. nobody even wanted to get close to me lol. to be honest deep i got no one except Allah.
how could you not have heart feeling when your bff said she would rather choose someone who can go out with her ? it takes time to pick up all the pieces that fallen. is that how you choose who u want to leave with? Allah... she's the only one who i look at, it remind me of Allah. why is people treating me like the last person. yes thanks im meaningless. i mess up people, my mood is swinging, at least respect me for who i am .
you wanna say that i made new friends ? nope. clap your hands for this weird statement. yea im an antisocial freak now. i only answer questions, smile at people and do my stuff. and eat. i cried a lot to fit in. i told some of my friends too about how i am but what can they do.
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