No wooden chairs and tables

Asallamualaikum!

I just wanna say that my examination is over ! \o/

SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA IS OVER! hoho

planning for my three months of break before the result is out? not really. yeah it's kind of weird for not planning what to do. Work? losing weight? eating? well, none of that was on top of my brain.

I have been burning the midnight oil just to get 10A+ for all the subjects so i have been studying. Too much subjects huh? well, that's malaysia. 

Examination is just a measuring tool to see how good you are in a subject - Aiman Azlan

Okay, so i would like to take that as a quote because i have been like almost killing myself if i didnt get to score the subjects. but i keep on wondering if i really did strike for the goals for every subjects.
I gave up for some of the papers especially for my stream. Account. Kill me now. since i got a B for it during my trial and my teacher made it into one grade above from there which is A- . there where everyone questioned and talked about it. Alhamdulillah i felt so guilty for my teacher too for putting me on a comfort zone. From there i really wanted to get A+ for it. I bought a lot of practice books just to get a hold of account during SPM. Until it hit me right where i was sitting for account in the examination hall, i felt like crying. My hands were shaking when i was trying to tie a death knot with the short and frail string before the answer sheets got collected. The teacher just watch and wait. Haih.

I have been wishing and praying that i hope i would get A+ for all because i wanted study oversea.

 I WANNA GO TO UNITED KINGDOM. SOMEWHERE OUTTA HERE 

that was my dream before people come crashing and telling me that Malaysia will be in a economical crisis. I JUST DONT WANT TO BE HERE. Ever since i came back to Malaysia i hated everything but humans that comes into my life, i forgot how home sick i was. I don't like it here to be honest. every crooks and crannies around this country makes me feel like hiding under the bed and not coming back for days. After all the judgements, i dont know what i've decided. either to go oversea or study away from home but still in the country. Affected by my account paper, i wonder if it was really the stream i should be going on with.

there was another option for me to go to which is management or something with physics or chemistry but i didn't had much research to it regarding what job can i get in the future? i didnt even know what my career is anymore. isn't that sad? anyways, instead of blabbing about what i am wishing after spm, let's first talk about what i did after my SPM can we?

So, on 29/11 i had finished my chemistry papers which was the last paper for me after 4 days gap. Alhamdulillah the day ended with my mom taking me home without bringing anything except me in the school uniform and my phone. hahaha. at first we with went out without permission from the warden just to go eat at the MAWAR restaurant where they made fried banana chips and it tasted zestfully as it celebrated for my freedom :3 huhu anyways, my mom sent my sister back to hostel since she got class the next day and so i went home. alone.

Guess it was boring to end school! xD hahaha honestly saying i wanna study lol.

Shortly thereafter, i went to my class barbecue party at homestay near the city. Because my 40 ringgit is save with the class's treasurer, i didnt get to get it back from her. ugh so, there i am with the only half of the classmates having a barbecue. undeniablly, it was fun and for me i just enjoyed the night even though i got none best friend around except for my classmates. they really kept me talking and that night we got close so much. We didn't sleep. We eat, we did mannequin challenge, we gossiped, we throwback photos when we were in form 4 , we ate ice cream with cornflakes and there i ended up sleeping only two hours. The house was freezing. After praying Fajr, i slept for 2 hours more and woke up to help them make breakfast. Fyi, we cooked everything ourselves. The boys only comes just to eat. And they when away as we rule the house, lol.

i just love them even though i use to be close with them. that night we gossiped and talked about the most person we hated in the class. lol Astagfirullahalazim . Im sorry for saying that but that girl is seriously bbbbbbbbbbiiiiiii*beeeeeeeeep* anyway the most thing i regret not doing during the party is eat. hahahahaahaha. it was still a lot of food. i did eat a lot but i just got uncomfortable and i'm just afraid if i end up in the bathroom huhu. i shouldnt have bring all home ngeh