Quranic Circle

                 Hey again! So.... i would like to talk about this. Two weeks ago, before i started my final, I got to meet my sister and also my mother since my sister just finished her final. Yeah she got to go home early :') while im still here. It's okay i have to put my intention of coming this far for my studies and i should be studying not being carried away too much by my own feelings. right?

I know i should be appreciating my friends and especially my family that they never stop giving support to me. it's just me who have to change my mindset which yeah, it's pretty hard. what my sister said im persistent :( (keras hati) I feel empty ever since i came to intec and i blame Allah's discretion that everything bad happens just because i got in here. Astagfirullahalzim.

I know i have been praying my hardest that this spot where i have started and chose, Allah knows that i can handle it i should be going on with it. I could not get up now after being so disappointed and it's too long because i didnt get what i want.

"what will you get in Heaven if you have got everything here?!"

and this came out from my sister since i used to get i want and maybe i wasnt being grateful. Nauzibillah min Zalik and that was reality because you know, this Duniyyah for a Mukmin is a Hell and the true Happiness is HereAfter.

I know i am weak spirit and i always need a support. I feel empty and i was so afraid of what i did until Allah came and send help that i myself don't know how to search it and from which source. Moreover, the college im in is a private. it's not easy to find something islamic to feed your rohani. and yeah there, i know i almost lost the purpose of life.

They might call it usrah, but i think it's something that will change me into something better. Something that can bring my close to Allah inshaAllah. So yesterday, we started a 30 min of usrah because i told her that we got our final today which is not cool because it's too short. but you know i also learn that it's not how much you are fed by those knowledge but how you apply it in life because that's what last long ;)

and that are at least the group i know for now

So on the far left, that the murabbi or we call her kak Alia. She was a help from Allah. and i hope it last and continue 

so the things we learn is in al Quran. the reason of having the usrah itself in (47:7) where we have to be stayer in anything. not that after we got a nikmah from Allah and we leave.