Here we go again

Asallamualaikum so heyyy now it's already 1 day left before my return to INTEC huhu. well, i'm sorry for making you wait. oh anyway whoever is out there. i think you shouldnt stalk me :) because it might hurt soooo just move your cursor to the X button upward ;)


I think i'm okay now except that i am having a mixed feeling for ACCA WHOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW! lol im not that excited. but anyway, still praying to Allah that if this is a good spot for me to continue, ease me.

So i am at the end of my holiday phase which to be honest i am trully and honestly not ready for this upcoming semester. and i don't know how to make myself ready. not even my mental nor my physical showing me that i'm ready to face the world. Sad but true

Anyway, overall last semester was incredible hectic. i was given a high load of work and i cant manage myself really well. i was still fighting with insomnia because of my worries.  back to the workload, i had also had to struggle with my own energy and on digesting the lessons i learned in a day. yes i was out of place. and this where i surrender and i couldnt take it. i just wish that everything that i do was followed by sincerity. sincerity because of Allah. sincerity that Allah have given a lot to me and if it was meant to me then it is.

Moreover, last semester i had to take 2 computer based exam and 2 written based exam. Alhamdulillah the result for the computer exam..... for FFA with 82% ((maintain Alhamdulillah)) and FMA with :( this was something that worries for my whole result because it drop pretty much and im not sure myself what goes wrong but it doesn't reach my target so..... for the last two written papers, i had to pick myselg up because that's the last chances for everything.

Since at the end, all the 8 papers i have taken through the year, it will be total up and the average scores will be a ticket for ACCA as well as the scholarship. im waiting for both or yeah maybe the scholarship because without it, who would have known if im gonna continue my journey.

hey if this sound so cringe, just close this tab seriously because im about to pour myself in here and you might not like it.

yes i still feel unconscious even when im happy im too happy and when im sad, im too sad huhuhu. i wish i was stable. just being myself and it sucks when you feel you are not normal. it feels like you think that you have some disease in your brain.

Anyway, above all im still grateful and please please please just pray for me so that my result will be okay to pursue everything and that i should stop being afraid of everything in the world except the All-Mighty

If you feel you're very down just close your eyes and say "This is my journey. It's His plan and theres nothing better than His plan. I can do this. I have to carry on and trust Him"

May Allah bless you, Dina :)

XOXO, IRIZ.