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Assalamualaikum
hey is there someone out there?
yeah i am here to let out
i dunno how this semester is. it's mix with lost.
im not sure maybe this is just a test from Him? or is it that He just want me to be far Him..
I know like there some out there who wanted to hear my voice out. of course my besties but hey, i couldnt get it out of my throat because i was about to cry when telling the truth. i could only talk while crying with my sister not anyone else.
but here i wanna say that I badly i felt im being used as a friend. I know i know and i know there is no point of befriending someone if they dont bring any good to u. and yeah im feeling that. to be honest, i know how badly i am as a friend. but maybe "she" tot i was so kind "she" had been using me. but anyway, i always put my niat to do things for her so that later it counts those as the good deeds i am doing is for Allah, and Allah will definitely put that evilness with whatever suits for them in Jahanam. (al Isra : 7)
to be honest i felt lost. mostly in my grades and also getting to know myself better. I am sooooo distracted with my phone plus i am sooo okay now with wasting time when those time i can turn it with something productive.
seriously, i am really okay with losing a friend before i am being attach to them. it is not okay for me if my alone time is disturb. i know i am a study-holic and i seriously dont mind that other than wasting a lot of time with noooooo purpose.
ever since i entered the Quranic Circle, it teaches me that we have to work for this world not just make it come rolling. that's not how you gain the Hereafter but it has to do something with Hereafter not something short term. just like this dunya. Same like everyday. you shouldnt let it pass by with something undone. so i am realllly trying hard to put it on track. seriously. and i hope it is not too late.
ohh and regarding my marks :)) it's two more weeks to final, and i think i am not even ready myself andddd im not sure if i can really pass for one of the paper. please. pray. for. me. to be back on trackkkk before it's too late.
and oh yeah i keep on talking about studying and friends like nothing else in this world can be talked about ;) but you can close this if you dislike them and if you think i am talking about you. how about no?
hey is there someone out there?
yeah i am here to let out
i dunno how this semester is. it's mix with lost.
im not sure maybe this is just a test from Him? or is it that He just want me to be far Him..
I know like there some out there who wanted to hear my voice out. of course my besties but hey, i couldnt get it out of my throat because i was about to cry when telling the truth. i could only talk while crying with my sister not anyone else.
but here i wanna say that I badly i felt im being used as a friend. I know i know and i know there is no point of befriending someone if they dont bring any good to u. and yeah im feeling that. to be honest, i know how badly i am as a friend. but maybe "she" tot i was so kind "she" had been using me. but anyway, i always put my niat to do things for her so that later it counts those as the good deeds i am doing is for Allah, and Allah will definitely put that evilness with whatever suits for them in Jahanam. (al Isra : 7)
to be honest i felt lost. mostly in my grades and also getting to know myself better. I am sooooo distracted with my phone plus i am sooo okay now with wasting time when those time i can turn it with something productive.
seriously, i am really okay with losing a friend before i am being attach to them. it is not okay for me if my alone time is disturb. i know i am a study-holic and i seriously dont mind that other than wasting a lot of time with noooooo purpose.
ever since i entered the Quranic Circle, it teaches me that we have to work for this world not just make it come rolling. that's not how you gain the Hereafter but it has to do something with Hereafter not something short term. just like this dunya. Same like everyday. you shouldnt let it pass by with something undone. so i am realllly trying hard to put it on track. seriously. and i hope it is not too late.
ohh and regarding my marks :)) it's two more weeks to final, and i think i am not even ready myself andddd im not sure if i can really pass for one of the paper. please. pray. for. me. to be back on trackkkk before it's too late.
and oh yeah i keep on talking about studying and friends like nothing else in this world can be talked about ;) but you can close this if you dislike them and if you think i am talking about you. how about no?
Hi dina hahaha its been a really long time do since we talked to each other but issokay busy study hahaha. Nothing much pun just scrolling down your blog reading what you're up to. haha you're a really really smart girl do never let anyone or anything bring you down. Hopefully you'll do well in your final and have a brighter future with good people. Okay caw luu member comment dari cyber cafe library ump lol HAHA
ReplyDeleteHey ! i know who you are. Thanks doh! You too May Allah bless you :) <3
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