Can I ?

Ya Allah only you can be my listener and grant all my wish but is this my desire or it is suppose to be like that?

I dont know what am I for anymore?
Please I am beggin you to see that I am here for you?
Or are you just made to make me learn a lesson? for not hoping to much ? woooooo
I am still patient.
Aku tak bodoh sangat selepas semua kau ckp tu auta . tapi yg tu btul btul kau punya feelings towards aku. Tapi kenape mesti muncul mase ni? mase mase aku kene fokus dlm pelajaran ? kenape ! ? and then bila aku perlukan kau , aku cite panjang panjang , you know what ? toooo latee.....
Adakah aku perlu menyesal?
atau dia sbb cara dia luar biasa yg buat aku pikir mcm "dia ni dah gila ke?"
ape kau rase bila kat skolah dia act lain bila kat laman sosial.... look you are hoping to her ~

Great , please just come back to me . My inside is scream ! Is it because I listened to my friend's opinion again? going around for a support and I what I want got passed. Owhhh really thankyou . I can put the blame to myself. All.
Hancur lebur D: buat skali lagi . Aku biarkan pengaruh kawan amik tempat aku punya pilihan . That's just me. FK. I hate myself :( I still love him . Just through the year. and It's almost one year that he left me and I still cant forget him

I really tried. hard. Half dead trying make those memories meaningless but I am not strong enough. There's no Dina anymore. She's dead. Her daring part, her quietest part . it's just dead!
Now that I already know the real truth , look. It's too late . He's chasing another person.
When can I get to do my own choice ? without telling anyone? OK.