Tired of The Feeling of Loss~

Hello n Salam ppl ._. I dont know why im gloomy. I've been waiting like ...forever...to have someone dat I give ma # to , to call me... but i dont know.. I get it.. Im just over reacted (am I?) to wait for someone n kind of force them to stay. I mean like it will go , and I will get hurt. Why do I have to be this brave (why?) Im tired to think over too much...He ..will.. He'll go and leave. But why did I get myself through this agn.. Is it dat Im just too brave to earn happiness this way? ._. Is it wrong ? Is it wrong to find my own way of not being ALONE? Do I really have to love/like someone dat I didnt know b4 just because it's just interesting? Why do I have to like/love someone like.. like him...It will go..and I will go too.. it's just waste..maybe just a waste of lifetime..or is it?