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Haii.
It seems like I cant even close my old book and open a new book because of the scars *scratch*
This time I dont know it was almost a year/ Even though I trying to have a crush, i always come back to THAT same person . That same person which I keep on being in every single post of mine.
I know I'm not a good writer nor someone who write with the proper punctuation and the right words to use.
The world in school is so badly torturing me even though im not out there in the world yet. AND im already scared. Doing sins and deeds at the same time which should not be even. Inside of me still want something and I dont know what is it.
It's really LUCKY when you get a guy with all perfect *pftt* Yea to the girls it's perfect ! From to hair to his body with six packs to money. But I dont judge guys from there. It's more better if the guy who DO have crush to me just keep it until i am MATURE enough to be in those situation ( yeah ) Kids nowadays, Sorry to say it but it includes me in the society. All I judge is his faith to Allah. How hardworking slave he is to the Creator. That's what I want so he could guide me and just dont tell me how deeply you are in me. Just watch me and at least know my weakness for the future.
Here I am with someone who I should be appreciating his imperfection and curves. I dont want to talk about him here. Let him be unknown to this blog of mine because I'm afraid if i failed again. I failed at having so long relay that I couldnt take it and asking them to let me go. To be honest, I dont want to be with anyone because maybe the emptiness of me just screaming to be fed with knowledge. Because everything im confident about will always be nothing. It just wont happen. Like how I imagine that he will say im beautiful even though i keep on asking why did you just me. Ty.
It seems like I cant even close my old book and open a new book because of the scars *scratch*
This time I dont know it was almost a year/ Even though I trying to have a crush, i always come back to THAT same person . That same person which I keep on being in every single post of mine.
I know I'm not a good writer nor someone who write with the proper punctuation and the right words to use.
The world in school is so badly torturing me even though im not out there in the world yet. AND im already scared. Doing sins and deeds at the same time which should not be even. Inside of me still want something and I dont know what is it.
It's really LUCKY when you get a guy with all perfect *pftt* Yea to the girls it's perfect ! From to hair to his body with six packs to money. But I dont judge guys from there. It's more better if the guy who DO have crush to me just keep it until i am MATURE enough to be in those situation ( yeah ) Kids nowadays, Sorry to say it but it includes me in the society. All I judge is his faith to Allah. How hardworking slave he is to the Creator. That's what I want so he could guide me and just dont tell me how deeply you are in me. Just watch me and at least know my weakness for the future.
Here I am with someone who I should be appreciating his imperfection and curves. I dont want to talk about him here. Let him be unknown to this blog of mine because I'm afraid if i failed again. I failed at having so long relay that I couldnt take it and asking them to let me go. To be honest, I dont want to be with anyone because maybe the emptiness of me just screaming to be fed with knowledge. Because everything im confident about will always be nothing. It just wont happen. Like how I imagine that he will say im beautiful even though i keep on asking why did you just me. Ty.
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