Next year is the future
In Malaysia, when your age is around 15-16, you will in form 4 and you have to choose which field you will be taking according to your interests. So, here I am talking about how confuse i am with all this interest because to me I dont know what i like (well, that's kinda funny. maybe not).
Asallamualaikum :) and good afternoon.
So the real PT3 that had replace PMR is finished. It is simply the beginning of the big exam that will affect our future and well, grades. Now, the application for different school which may have the course that will take are now open. The due date of the application is before the result is out ( most of them). So, my mom is telling me to apply for all that's already open. Insecurity overflows me because the schools that are open are for highly educated students that will be challenge you. You get what i mean ? I mean, im the loser here while the others are nerds in the school. yeah, that's what I mean. My mom is telling me to enter the boarding school, too since the school that i appeal will be far from home. This is the other reason that im scared of. Im not use to all this thing. I know that I will get use to it once im in it . But Im not sure. My esteem are low and my confidence are eaten up.
The other day, while we all normally go to school, we had taken the psychometric test. It's the test to see what you are interested in. I thought so it's just tick "yes or no" or solve the HOTS problems. But at the end the teacher said that they will use it if you want to be in the toppest class. I was relieved because i did it seriously :3 but it was the other way around, this make me wanna cry because two three days before this, i took the result and the counselling told me " How can you go to the toppest class if your mathematic is low?!" and I look at it in deepest sorrow. I dont understand it. I mean the one i spend most of the time answering is the one that i got low marks. I tried to remind calm either way but at the same time I was thinking if i will be moving school or not just because of this result. I tried to hold ~
Well, now I have been spending my time in front of facebook, playing Stardoll [http://www.stardoll.com/en/] (it's my game dont judge it once you know how to play, you will know hahaha) and waking up late. Im a mess instead of studying for the exam to be in the "boarding school" will be haunting me down three week to go.
Asallamualaikum :) and good afternoon.
So the real PT3 that had replace PMR is finished. It is simply the beginning of the big exam that will affect our future and well, grades. Now, the application for different school which may have the course that will take are now open. The due date of the application is before the result is out ( most of them). So, my mom is telling me to apply for all that's already open. Insecurity overflows me because the schools that are open are for highly educated students that will be challenge you. You get what i mean ? I mean, im the loser here while the others are nerds in the school. yeah, that's what I mean. My mom is telling me to enter the boarding school, too since the school that i appeal will be far from home. This is the other reason that im scared of. Im not use to all this thing. I know that I will get use to it once im in it . But Im not sure. My esteem are low and my confidence are eaten up.
The other day, while we all normally go to school, we had taken the psychometric test. It's the test to see what you are interested in. I thought so it's just tick "yes or no" or solve the HOTS problems. But at the end the teacher said that they will use it if you want to be in the toppest class. I was relieved because i did it seriously :3 but it was the other way around, this make me wanna cry because two three days before this, i took the result and the counselling told me " How can you go to the toppest class if your mathematic is low?!" and I look at it in deepest sorrow. I dont understand it. I mean the one i spend most of the time answering is the one that i got low marks. I tried to remind calm either way but at the same time I was thinking if i will be moving school or not just because of this result. I tried to hold ~
Well, now I have been spending my time in front of facebook, playing Stardoll [http://www.stardoll.com/en/] (it's my game dont judge it once you know how to play, you will know hahaha) and waking up late. Im a mess instead of studying for the exam to be in the "boarding school" will be haunting me down three week to go.
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