later dude
is it so heard to prove to people that im trying to put myself in a place where people dont see as stress as usual? Im trying to change here so people could look forward to me like i have open up to them. is it so hard? im not trying to fit in but im trying to be myself.. when i did, nobody noticed me and so i become the way i use to be which is all-the-time-angry-woman lol. Ya Allah may you forgive me for my unconscious self when im angry :(
im trying my best not to be too selfish. as i am a lone ranger ((as always)) i tend to go everywhere alone. not thinking who might call me a freak.
hey oh right is midterm break. i should chill right? but i dunno why but inside of me just screaming as i should be afraid of everything. all over again. this time it's a week just the same as eid last time. but this one is much more freedom than before this because the progress test will be after one week class. wuhuuuuuu
messy me had brought all the books home. i repeat all excluding the most important thing i should have brought home. which is my laptop, awwww stupid me. why did i bring all book while the hw is just a little and most of them were just papers? yes. that's right. my scary little feeling had made me brought all books home. as usual.
this come to a conclusion that, i want to be a little unproductive early on the week and at the end of the week will be a bit more productive. but im not sure if that will go according to plan because this month, we have got the eid al-adha. and my family is planning to hold a ceremony. this ceremony will be held at the end of the week before we all be send back to our college BUT something that makes my heart aches is that, this will be the last long break before i face up three more papers in three month and the rest of holiday will just be weekend. those are my assumption because going back home will eat up a lot of time. it's better i stayed where im suppose to be and just study ya know. so, i was planning that i could meet ALL my friends this week. lol
before anything, i love it when i heard our family will be having a lil ceremony at our new home but unfortunately, something i dont like about it is that, i have to go back so early from the "real home" which means i will have no time on meeting any of my friends :( logically, i was thinking why must we go back so early while the ceremony is like five days away and all the family members are not home yet. (there is only me, my mom and my lil bro at home)yup my relatives. so, i was being a rebellion. lol i felt guilty with my mom since she had to listen to me. i did gave up trying to meet anyone before going back to village. yet she had offer to send me near them so i could at least meet.
my mood for these few days was pretty crappy and idk why. maybe because i planned to meet someone right after i climb down the bus from the place i studied but ending up meeting some 'other' guy lol and also most of my plan didnt go the way it wanted but i know maybe Allah always have a better plan. Ya Allah please bring up good things later :')
P.S/ mom im sorry :c
im trying my best not to be too selfish. as i am a lone ranger ((as always)) i tend to go everywhere alone. not thinking who might call me a freak.
hey oh right is midterm break. i should chill right? but i dunno why but inside of me just screaming as i should be afraid of everything. all over again. this time it's a week just the same as eid last time. but this one is much more freedom than before this because the progress test will be after one week class. wuhuuuuuu
messy me had brought all the books home. i repeat all excluding the most important thing i should have brought home. which is my laptop, awwww stupid me. why did i bring all book while the hw is just a little and most of them were just papers? yes. that's right. my scary little feeling had made me brought all books home. as usual.
this come to a conclusion that, i want to be a little unproductive early on the week and at the end of the week will be a bit more productive. but im not sure if that will go according to plan because this month, we have got the eid al-adha. and my family is planning to hold a ceremony. this ceremony will be held at the end of the week before we all be send back to our college BUT something that makes my heart aches is that, this will be the last long break before i face up three more papers in three month and the rest of holiday will just be weekend. those are my assumption because going back home will eat up a lot of time. it's better i stayed where im suppose to be and just study ya know. so, i was planning that i could meet ALL my friends this week. lol
before anything, i love it when i heard our family will be having a lil ceremony at our new home but unfortunately, something i dont like about it is that, i have to go back so early from the "real home" which means i will have no time on meeting any of my friends :( logically, i was thinking why must we go back so early while the ceremony is like five days away and all the family members are not home yet. (there is only me, my mom and my lil bro at home)yup my relatives. so, i was being a rebellion. lol i felt guilty with my mom since she had to listen to me. i did gave up trying to meet anyone before going back to village. yet she had offer to send me near them so i could at least meet.
my mood for these few days was pretty crappy and idk why. maybe because i planned to meet someone right after i climb down the bus from the place i studied but ending up meeting some 'other' guy lol and also most of my plan didnt go the way it wanted but i know maybe Allah always have a better plan. Ya Allah please bring up good things later :')
P.S/ mom im sorry :c
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