The downfall
Yes. I wasn't even imagining how i will be without my twin sister. I was okay for a week but then after i went to a english bridging class in INTEC Education College, my expectation and dreams just fall into pieces. As you can see in the previous post ( you should go read it ) and if you could tell the registration day for this college was the same date as the result of getting the UPU, a computerized result for what IPTA I got in. I was encouraged by no one to be in INTEC Education College over another university which I got called Universiti Utara Malaysia. It's not that i dont want to be there. I also had to go for an interview for that university. Oh yeah, fyi the interview session was interviewed 10 candidates at the same time. The interviewer or even specifically the lecturer in that university asked me about getting the Yayasan Peneraju Pendidikan Bumiputera scholarship but that time i was so confident that i didnt get it anymore since they didnt gave any update about getting the scholarship.
The result came out at noon which i was confident again that i would not have to choose to go to UUM since i already registed and listening to the briefing alone again given by Raja Azura (better search about her!) She explained that CAT ACCA is not impossible to success and that the resilience ability inside each individuals have to keep on building up for this kind of programme. I already building my guards up and it's me who wanted to continue my studies so fast. Tbh, we, the candidates, alllll didn't even have enough time to decide since we have to settle everything in just two days after the email was given to us! and the result for UPU came on the same date of the registeration day!!!!! what do you expect haih. i even put a lot to burden to my mom since i had to go for medical check up and also get approvals for all my achievements which i had been asking for authorized signature ever since i had been working on getting scholarship around Malaysia pfft.
While still on registration session, the one who got sponsored was given a packet of YPPB scholarship agreement which we have to send back later that week. When this was on my hand, now, i realized that this was the start of my downfall. i dunno what came into me but i got really scared by just reading all of it. this was ongoing until half of the semester. i cant tell myself anymore and i almost lost myself trying to adjust with every single thing including my surrounding. Almost a month of adjusting, I cried a lot. every night. every single fking day. i just couldnt get out the reason of why i am being so coward and my mind was stunted. I never get of my books or left them aside because i have been informed that i couldnt fail any of the 9 papers in CAT or not i have to pay all the scholarship back. YES this was it. I was so scared until i wasnt even opening up to anybody. In this YPPB program or more precise, the MyPAC that's handling this programme, the candidate have to sit for an exam/progress test every freaking two weeks before the real final every 3 month! can you understand that. Furthermore, we dont have carry marks for the progress tests that will help our marks on our final. The real game was during the final. which was computer-based exam ( an exam we have to answer in the computer and at the end when you send submit, your result will automatically displayed :) ) scary much huh?
The result came out at noon which i was confident again that i would not have to choose to go to UUM since i already registed and listening to the briefing alone again given by Raja Azura (better search about her!) She explained that CAT ACCA is not impossible to success and that the resilience ability inside each individuals have to keep on building up for this kind of programme. I already building my guards up and it's me who wanted to continue my studies so fast. Tbh, we, the candidates, alllll didn't even have enough time to decide since we have to settle everything in just two days after the email was given to us! and the result for UPU came on the same date of the registeration day!!!!! what do you expect haih. i even put a lot to burden to my mom since i had to go for medical check up and also get approvals for all my achievements which i had been asking for authorized signature ever since i had been working on getting scholarship around Malaysia pfft.
While still on registration session, the one who got sponsored was given a packet of YPPB scholarship agreement which we have to send back later that week. When this was on my hand, now, i realized that this was the start of my downfall. i dunno what came into me but i got really scared by just reading all of it. this was ongoing until half of the semester. i cant tell myself anymore and i almost lost myself trying to adjust with every single thing including my surrounding. Almost a month of adjusting, I cried a lot. every night. every single fking day. i just couldnt get out the reason of why i am being so coward and my mind was stunted. I never get of my books or left them aside because i have been informed that i couldnt fail any of the 9 papers in CAT or not i have to pay all the scholarship back. YES this was it. I was so scared until i wasnt even opening up to anybody. In this YPPB program or more precise, the MyPAC that's handling this programme, the candidate have to sit for an exam/progress test every freaking two weeks before the real final every 3 month! can you understand that. Furthermore, we dont have carry marks for the progress tests that will help our marks on our final. The real game was during the final. which was computer-based exam ( an exam we have to answer in the computer and at the end when you send submit, your result will automatically displayed :) ) scary much huh?
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