Awake....

Feeling freaking bad...
I wish I had a person to let all things out..
:'(
I nvr told my mom
I want to but I nvr try
Im scared
Why...
I dont hav anyone to tell my secret anymore
I had no one dat is really close to me anymore
Not the same..
I don't know..
My head imagine everything..
Evrything dat I wish it could happen
It's just a dream....Imagination
My imagination had gone wild
Since wen?
Since I had my first person who I like whn Im awake..
Awake.........
Can I hav does happiness back? :'/
Can I hav dat joy back?
Dat less emotional back?