If He has showed me the way, I wud dare to ignore but Follow

Before you do anything bad after reading anything that I write which hurts you, Better click 'x' up there which helps you get the hell out of here.

Im in the situation where I just dont know where I should do .
Trully this post talks about my OPINION.
that's right.

I've been going to a wrong path . Where I'm just really confuse .

 Ish ! >< I think social media have been making me drifting from making me the real Muslim :') Ya Allah ! I think this is the weird feeling I've been having. After my dad find out what's in my phone , I think that's it . Yes ! He's my greatest that ever for this reason. Wkwk. Tbh, yesterday in the car on the way home from Makkah , since my mom wasnt there , we shared stories. :)) I didnt share but my dad did. He asked me some things about skool and so my sister and I ask him back . He was similar to my brother . He's religious MashaAllah . His friend have been the people who their faith to Allah are strong :') Just like my brother . :')) and yea yea yea . But suddenly it comes to this part where he talks about love . Yes . Love . and this is the part where I call it a Lecture. But it's so damn true !

Love when you are in this age, Age where you are still studying is what you call "Love for the time being" or in Malay what we call "Cinta Monyet" look . I have been thinking everyday and torturing my mind, my brain and my life trying to tell my heart that "your journey is a long way to go ." Yes . It is. Im in Grade 8 and this is what my dad said the problem in our country, in our society . Students in RELATIONSHIP is biggo problem because they seems not to focus more on Studies..but if you do than lucky you -.- BUT it's still a bad thing . Tbh, I really really do believe and support love after Marriage becuz Marriage is the Joyness in Life . But here where you hav to stop bruh . WE ARE STILL YOUNG ! get it ? oho *facepalm*

I repeat :

Before you do anything bad after reading anything that I write which hurts you, Better click 'x' up there which helps you get the hell out of here.

Starting from there, about every single possible shit just pop into my mind like crazy . I cant let go of someone who i just accept >< "oho it's really possible girl !" "how come?" "because you are not deeply in love ! :D" ._.

Im like AH!!!! tbh honest I have been feeling guilty from the start I talk to guys. "WTF!" Yes . From the start whn I return back to Malaysia, all this bad aura just came haunting me down that I just dont feel comfortable where my instinct feel it but I cant really tell what the heck is it .

After watching this (the video down below) , I think it just inspired me and made me brave ? . Oh you better watch it !


By sudden I feel scared . "How should I explain without hurting someone's feeling ?" ._. Ugh. I know some of my babes hav been through this situation and now I reallyreally know how scary it feels like ><

But I do and have to believe that Allah challenge us with something that we can solve it . And those this mean He answered my prayer ? Whn I was kid (and still do) my dad keep saying " Study first and love is later" But why didnt I just focus on that and like be a Noob and Nerd who just dont care about being in LOVE ? </3 ha ! *bang heads on the floor*

This what it means "The Disadvantages of Being in Love in Young Ages"
# Make someone's crazy .                   And so that's me .

Aigoo >< There's no going back once I accept him . But I wonder myself if that was.. trully Sincerely by.. me or ... it's just my hands who's writing some lies and my mouth that's not telling the truth ? >< This. is. kind. of. frustrating. shit.

I've been thinking a lot and those things that encourage me, makes me wanting to stop. the. relay . yes. that's right . But I dont like hurting people ! x{ This is incredibly hard ._. While he's away for the Eid. N how can I clear things out ? #Ifuqinghatethisfeeling . Can I say no to Relationship already ?