in misery

i have been crunching my stomach for almost 1 hour now. i never felt this way before. this period pain is dying than ever. but i would like to tell you more about how unhealthy i am right now. my back hurts. a lot. even my head. last time when i went to this place to have a therapeutical massage on my feet, Tok Jom (we call it) had told me that i had migraine. this is truly something to be shock and not to be shock at once. i know that the last time i wasnt able to have a normal days was because i'm lack of sugar and those sugar are the one that gives you the energy or not you would be feeling like a mummy all at once.

during spm, i did try to be healthy. i ate vitamin and vegetables but i knew it wasnt enough for me because imagine, how many red blood cells is in your body?but i tried. and i also just 'sometimes' i went to the volleyball court to avoid myself from being stress. wait, actually this only happens during spm trial, not spm because i would end up going to bed early and not waking up early to study. whatever it is. everything just stop right after spm. all those cold and soft drinks, smoothie or blended, everything just got sucked by me like i have forgotten about my nose.

my nose? yeah. my nose. after a year of the operation because of the bended bone inside my nose and getting out the sinus inside of it (i just knew about this), it started again during the second year of being curing, it started again. this time it's much worse. every now and then, i just felt a sudden ticklish or more likely my nose itches. i had to push my nose up and i know this is very disgusting thing to do. moreover, i also had some other effect, like for example, if i ate something i cant eat or used the wrong liquid soaps, my body started to itch badly. mostly, on my neck and my forearm. sometimes, it itches until i made it into bruises. the next day, my neck looked like someone tried to choke me over night. if you had stayed in my prep, you might had seen it, be surprise and asked about it. all i can i say it was my allergic to some food ( thanks for being kind to me :') btw)

also, i cant really work with AC or high-powered fans when i went to sleep even though i really wanted to but duh, i will wake up feeling like that day when i just got back from the operation and i got something stuck up in my nose. do you know how it feels like? okay. try to put it this way. try putting a sponge to each of your nostrils. can you breathe? barely. so yeah there you go, even though there was an air conditioner in my room. nice and new, but i never opened it ( except i was trying it out at the beginning when i first got it.

i am really stubborn. i cant just control my throat to take something cold and good now :( then i just end it up sick. and now i think i am having fever because my backhead hurts like hell everytime i wake up from sleep and my legs are freezing and my body's shivering. im trying acting up okay :')