I don't deserve to be like this ...PART 1
It's been about 2 weeks , yeah . It feels weird . Tbh, when he went to the "dance" trip thingy , yes . I cried agn . He asks me to promise that I shouldnt be crying for someone like him . But I cried . I cant do anything . I just cant decide . My friends supports me . with everything . And the reasons . And when he came back . Yes ~ He change . Change not into what I want . But he decision change . Just the exactly like . ALMOST . Yew because of studies and his reason wasnt that strong enough. not stronger than mine.
It's just through my tweets and Im like :x . He said lets just be together after studies =.= Im like is this true ?THIS is really true that he just dont know what to do . and he didnt show it back as much as I did . N yea. He's ready to let me . We still fought a little and it's rare and rude of me again to use I and you in which now I use it to chat with him now -_- Yup because i dont know he's hard to understand but I know he does but he keep it all to himself . I get it , he's a keeper but dude I was yours ! You didnt feel pity that Im here trying to figure about your LIFE ! Why be an Alien !? I have been thinking to far here . Why u cant u just . ergh . And that's what I think , And that's it when he was on the trip, I send him a message which I tried not too regret .
Yes ! And my friend said it's good that he dont have loads because I cant reply back . And there !
The day when he return I know , he wont remember anything about me ._. Argh! I hate that . I saw some pictures in Instagram from AKA almost-like-his-dad and I see him smiling :') haha , wow. I get it now . On the day when he return , he return , and all that feeling comes back . We fought a little and he said to be best friend :( I wasnt ready for all this . Serious I am saying . I just need a BREAK from all this :L I which he can understand that I just move here , and he was too fast . I mean why ? and now he wants to be back like the first time we met , I know it will impossible . And all is gone. All gone, I know he wanna make me feels regret leaving him. But I just wanna tell u that even though I wanted to leave because I dont want u to know what's wrong with me .. Im sick , My future , I just what will happen and I wanted u to figure them all of it yourself but ,, no . I expect too much from u . I know u want me to know u more too but I've tried it but hav u ? you nvr wanna know about ..
You know how I know you nvr wanna know about it ? Because once I talk about the school and that im crying , you said to change the topic :( Oh How caring are you ? :(( What do you think my feeling was ? You are not caring at all !
"Aku redha ape yang akan jadi padaku selepas ini? -> "I'll go with the flow after this" But I cant ! He said to work hard on it . "Kita boleh berusaha" But right now , it's only me that's working on it , he was sucha busy man now :c Good that's a gud way to forget about someone like me .
I was the only one who's working on it . Twitter was about to be my diary , I tweet almost everything off what I feel , I mean like If you hate what you see on your TL from me , you are welcome to unfollow me :/ that's the only way since he's busy . I got no friend to talk about this anymore . Talk to the girls from KSA ? too much to explain from the beginning :s I wish i was there, enjoy the first day of school on September :( but it have been written that Im here . Takdir . Takdir . *in malay* I cant avoid them :( Ya Allah make me strong from those who wants to see me fall :(
It's just through my tweets and Im like :x . He said lets just be together after studies =.= Im like is this true ?THIS is really true that he just dont know what to do . and he didnt show it back as much as I did . N yea. He's ready to let me . We still fought a little and it's rare and rude of me again to use I and you in which now I use it to chat with him now -_- Yup because i dont know he's hard to understand but I know he does but he keep it all to himself . I get it , he's a keeper but dude I was yours ! You didnt feel pity that Im here trying to figure about your LIFE ! Why be an Alien !? I have been thinking to far here . Why u cant u just . ergh . And that's what I think , And that's it when he was on the trip, I send him a message which I tried not too regret .
Yes ! And my friend said it's good that he dont have loads because I cant reply back . And there !
The day when he return I know , he wont remember anything about me ._. Argh! I hate that . I saw some pictures in Instagram from AKA almost-like-his-dad and I see him smiling :') haha , wow. I get it now . On the day when he return , he return , and all that feeling comes back . We fought a little and he said to be best friend :( I wasnt ready for all this . Serious I am saying . I just need a BREAK from all this :L I which he can understand that I just move here , and he was too fast . I mean why ? and now he wants to be back like the first time we met , I know it will impossible . And all is gone. All gone, I know he wanna make me feels regret leaving him. But I just wanna tell u that even though I wanted to leave because I dont want u to know what's wrong with me .. Im sick , My future , I just what will happen and I wanted u to figure them all of it yourself but ,, no . I expect too much from u . I know u want me to know u more too but I've tried it but hav u ? you nvr wanna know about ..
You know how I know you nvr wanna know about it ? Because once I talk about the school and that im crying , you said to change the topic :( Oh How caring are you ? :(( What do you think my feeling was ? You are not caring at all !
"Aku redha ape yang akan jadi padaku selepas ini? -> "I'll go with the flow after this" But I cant ! He said to work hard on it . "Kita boleh berusaha" But right now , it's only me that's working on it , he was sucha busy man now :c Good that's a gud way to forget about someone like me .
I was the only one who's working on it . Twitter was about to be my diary , I tweet almost everything off what I feel , I mean like If you hate what you see on your TL from me , you are welcome to unfollow me :/ that's the only way since he's busy . I got no friend to talk about this anymore . Talk to the girls from KSA ? too much to explain from the beginning :s I wish i was there, enjoy the first day of school on September :( but it have been written that Im here . Takdir . Takdir . *in malay* I cant avoid them :( Ya Allah make me strong from those who wants to see me fall :(
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