Too good .
Why ? Why ? Should I feel regret accepting someone who cant try to understand my situation right now ?
I cared about you .
I love you as much as I can .
I say something back if I needed
but why ?
Why cant u understand for once that Im not the right person to aim for ! ?
Im weak ! My life sucks really bad right now ! Why cant you understand an give me a break ?
Im tired of getting use . Whn do you use me ? right now can you realize that you only love me becuz I change you but ever you think that im happy ? can you change my life too ? can you ? I feel pity for everything about you . But why did you think Im happy with my life right now ? Could you at least understand how sad I am with my future . How my future gonna be ? You break my heart . Tell others what you feel . Lucky u . But ever think about MY opinions ? Who should I believe ? I fight with my thoughts and feelings . Trying to make a decision . That if I let him go what will happen or if I give a chance what will happen . Hurm . I wanna shout in an open field . Give me a relief . I dont have to go hit someone . I cried . My eyes are hurt . I have been trying to think of a way to tell him that Im not comfortable . He's too overly attach . I fight with my feeling saying I should let him go and I should care about him more . But tbh, YOU can never be sure of the future . You can change . Maybe next time you will be like me to , asking to clash . I never trust when you say I wanna b with you forever or I love you forever . Someone have to slap you and says that you are still young ! I realize that all myself after thinking about my studies which many will be putting aside IF i still do this . For the sake of my happiness. But he dont want to leave . If he really wanna be with me then understand that marriage is better than being couple . Marriage . Do anything you like -_________- this is one reason . Remember , Remember Allah ? Just dont deeply in love with someone and forget that he created you .
Once I told him that coupling is HARAM but he give me back with a hadith . I mean dude , I get it . But We are YOUNG ! totally young . our school is not over yet . you are no 18 or something yet . That's why I think you should just forget me now and if there's a chance , we'll fall in love agn . TBH, every love i felt just fade away after doing something wrong . I dont know why ... How can I stay ? teach me how to love u agn ? I dont know if im getting bored of you or whatsoever but all the reason I told you is clearly there . what else do you want ? Is it worthed to give a second chance ? tell me why ? Why do I feel this way ? Suddenly feel ... nothing ? I dont know what happen . But all that happen that I know is that I am not happy . When you heard the line Im not happy , what do you think ? You cant feel the joyful right ? joyful in what ? Joyful in loving someone other than family at the very young age !
I feel tortured . No one can understand me . Thinking this is karma , I dont know about that for sure either . I know only Allah could understand my situation right now and it's more better :') I could only pray . Hateful feeling hav taken over the part of my love . I know my heart . I tried to tell him that I've been played around by boys and they left me with lessons . If this time , he will be leaving me with lesson , Im ready for anything . If he's gonna change his thoughts about me , change it . If he change his taste , change it . But all i know is that Im too weak to give a second try .
I wasted again , my teardrops .Thinking why possibly he want me to stay. To keep changing his life, to make him happy , to be the person he deeply in love . But one thing I always repeat , Do you think Im happy ? do you ever try to think of a way of how to overcome my fear to things Im afraid ? I didnt feel like to share story to you becauz I know that nothing that you wanna know about , except my love . If it's real or not . How long have you been stupid ? A sentence I always here from your mouth or your hands that time is 'It's the past, dont you think about it anymore' . I disagree with that sentence . The reason someone wanna know your past it's becuz they can avoid it in the future . But YOU ? Nvr go back thinking you regret something or you miss something ? Where do you learn your lesson my dear ? Sucha dumbass -,- I've lost my respect towards you.
I've been thinking deeply , what is my decision . why and how . But the only thing that cant be out of my 'not to stay' decision is that i've been loving someone who dont understand my situation and who nvr think of a way to make me happy . Yes Im so mean but at least I told you the truth .
I dont need perfect boy , I dont need a perfect relay , I only need trust and understanding . without them , there's no reason I should stay . Do my face looks like a monster that's you are scared to tell me about anything ? Huh ? What you dont want to lose me ? Well you are becuz I dont feel any trust anymore . Wasting my tears together with my future . Future Im with you ? Vhat ? How can you know it will last long . im just preparing if you got some other taste. I tried to focus. You like to test me to my limits. all this thing go right back at you dear .
You are surprise whn I ask for this ? Because you nvr ask how Im feeling with my life . Hah right back to you -..-
I cared about you .
I love you as much as I can .
I say something back if I needed
but why ?
Why cant u understand for once that Im not the right person to aim for ! ?
Im weak ! My life sucks really bad right now ! Why cant you understand an give me a break ?
Im tired of getting use . Whn do you use me ? right now can you realize that you only love me becuz I change you but ever you think that im happy ? can you change my life too ? can you ? I feel pity for everything about you . But why did you think Im happy with my life right now ? Could you at least understand how sad I am with my future . How my future gonna be ? You break my heart . Tell others what you feel . Lucky u . But ever think about MY opinions ? Who should I believe ? I fight with my thoughts and feelings . Trying to make a decision . That if I let him go what will happen or if I give a chance what will happen . Hurm . I wanna shout in an open field . Give me a relief . I dont have to go hit someone . I cried . My eyes are hurt . I have been trying to think of a way to tell him that Im not comfortable . He's too overly attach . I fight with my feeling saying I should let him go and I should care about him more . But tbh, YOU can never be sure of the future . You can change . Maybe next time you will be like me to , asking to clash . I never trust when you say I wanna b with you forever or I love you forever . Someone have to slap you and says that you are still young ! I realize that all myself after thinking about my studies which many will be putting aside IF i still do this . For the sake of my happiness. But he dont want to leave . If he really wanna be with me then understand that marriage is better than being couple . Marriage . Do anything you like -_________- this is one reason . Remember , Remember Allah ? Just dont deeply in love with someone and forget that he created you .
Once I told him that coupling is HARAM but he give me back with a hadith . I mean dude , I get it . But We are YOUNG ! totally young . our school is not over yet . you are no 18 or something yet . That's why I think you should just forget me now and if there's a chance , we'll fall in love agn . TBH, every love i felt just fade away after doing something wrong . I dont know why ... How can I stay ? teach me how to love u agn ? I dont know if im getting bored of you or whatsoever but all the reason I told you is clearly there . what else do you want ? Is it worthed to give a second chance ? tell me why ? Why do I feel this way ? Suddenly feel ... nothing ? I dont know what happen . But all that happen that I know is that I am not happy . When you heard the line Im not happy , what do you think ? You cant feel the joyful right ? joyful in what ? Joyful in loving someone other than family at the very young age !
I feel tortured . No one can understand me . Thinking this is karma , I dont know about that for sure either . I know only Allah could understand my situation right now and it's more better :') I could only pray . Hateful feeling hav taken over the part of my love . I know my heart . I tried to tell him that I've been played around by boys and they left me with lessons . If this time , he will be leaving me with lesson , Im ready for anything . If he's gonna change his thoughts about me , change it . If he change his taste , change it . But all i know is that Im too weak to give a second try .
I wasted again , my teardrops .Thinking why possibly he want me to stay. To keep changing his life, to make him happy , to be the person he deeply in love . But one thing I always repeat , Do you think Im happy ? do you ever try to think of a way of how to overcome my fear to things Im afraid ? I didnt feel like to share story to you becauz I know that nothing that you wanna know about , except my love . If it's real or not . How long have you been stupid ? A sentence I always here from your mouth or your hands that time is 'It's the past, dont you think about it anymore' . I disagree with that sentence . The reason someone wanna know your past it's becuz they can avoid it in the future . But YOU ? Nvr go back thinking you regret something or you miss something ? Where do you learn your lesson my dear ? Sucha dumbass -,- I've lost my respect towards you.
I've been thinking deeply , what is my decision . why and how . But the only thing that cant be out of my 'not to stay' decision is that i've been loving someone who dont understand my situation and who nvr think of a way to make me happy . Yes Im so mean but at least I told you the truth .
I dont need perfect boy , I dont need a perfect relay , I only need trust and understanding . without them , there's no reason I should stay . Do my face looks like a monster that's you are scared to tell me about anything ? Huh ? What you dont want to lose me ? Well you are becuz I dont feel any trust anymore . Wasting my tears together with my future . Future Im with you ? Vhat ? How can you know it will last long . im just preparing if you got some other taste. I tried to focus. You like to test me to my limits. all this thing go right back at you dear .
You are surprise whn I ask for this ? Because you nvr ask how Im feeling with my life . Hah right back to you -..-
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